MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!

Past and future

Tonight she asked me about my previous relationships-mainly about the reason why I ended those relationships especially my last one. I did not really wanted to tell her since I don't know whether it will affect her decision or not. But in the end, I ended up being truthful to her and answered all her questions. Not sure if what I did is right or not, but I hope that it would not affect my chances that much. Well..luckily for me, she still has yet to change her mind on me visiting her on Mon, in fact she was kinda excited as in planning where to go, what to do and all that stuff.

On the side note, I managed to successfully finished a handmade card to be given to her on Mon today. It was not really that great card. It's just a simple card. This is after all my first time making a card for a girl or even a guy. The last time I made a card if I'm not wrong was for my parents when I was still a very young boy. Anyway, hope that this card, together with the peanut chocolate and the couple key chains will do the trick for me on Mon when I asked her to be my girlfriend face-to-face for the first time.

Down

Not sure of my feelings tonight. Actually, was quite down earlier this evening. As usual, I received a notification that she has read my e-card. So, I immediately tried chatting with her in MSN. However, she did not replied me. I thought she was bathing or perhaps busy. So i left for dinner. Even when I came back after dinner, I still did not hear from her. I thought maybe I did not sent her or perhaps the sending failed. I then MSN her again. But still no reply. I waited for some time until I couldn't stand it, I SMS her. And yet NO reply!!! At the moment, I was really worried and sad. Worried that something might happened to her (although I know I'm thinking too much) and sad because thinking that perhaps she's avoiding me (I also know I'm thinking too much in this as well). I tried recalling our conversations from last night to check whether I had said or did something wrong. But as far as I can recalled, I did nothing wrong. And so, I SMS-ed her again asking whether is she angry me. This time I got a reply from her. According to her, she's not at home now.

I know I should feel reassured after hearing from her. But I couldn't help myself from thinking too much. Needless to say, my mood was down for the rest of the night. Then finally I received a MSN from her later, saying she has reached home. We chatted a while after that. Apparently, she went for shopping, and she silent-ed her hp, so did not notice my SMS. Phew! Luckily everything turned out OK. But from tonight's episode, I now know that I love her very very much. Much more than I initially thought. If someone could die from missing people too much, then I guess my time in this Earth should be coming to an end..

For her

Had a great dinner with a bunch of close friends. During the inner, had a lot of stick coming from them regarding my relationship with her. Apparently, most if not all of them knew what's is currently happening. Chatted with her a while tonight when a friend called her and then passing the phone around, with each of them chatted with her for a while.

Anyway, went shopping for things to give her (if I'm meeting her this Mon) this afternoon. Even though I had something in my mind (couples key chain) , but still spent more than an hour walking around trying to decide which is nicer and suitable. Ended up selecting from the most expensive stall, but feels it's worth it. Hope she will like it.

Going to make a card for her tomorrow and hopefully that the key chain and self-made card will do the trick when I meet her this Mon. Wish me luck!

One step closer

One step closer. We chatted again tonight for nearly an hour. It has been 3 consecutive days we chatted on the phone and each time lasted one hour or more. I guess this is being in love is all about. I just can't seemed to get her off my head. Really really praying hard that I will be able to meet her next week. Will be spending some time to plan on how should I gave her a memorable occasion, if we are to go out next week.

EUPHORIA!

Am in euphoric state right now! Guess the video clip which I made specially for her really did its trick. I would say that my chances with her now is sky-rocketing. Just hope that I won't stumble and mess up everything at the very last minute.

Am so in love with her...

Getting closer

I seriously think our relationship are improving fast. I think what's left now is just for me to confess to her again in a special occasion, which might come as soon as next week (hopefully).

Here are some of the things that makes up my conviction.

1) This afternoon while SMS, she was preparing to head back home. As I know she is driving, I asked her not to reply me yet and wished her safe driving. Thought that she would just wait for me to message her again, but got her MSN message telling me that she had reached home.

2) We chatted on the phone again tonight, which lasted 70 over minutes. Without me asking her, she told me what happened at her work place today. Usually I would have to ask her and she wouldn't tell much most of the time. But this time she told me without me asking her.

3) As I mentioned yesterday, I'm currently trying to arrange with her to meet her for movie probably next Mon, the day that she would be taking off. Kinda expected her to say no need, but instead she asked me how to go and whether I'm going with our friends or what. Then I replied her that I'm not sure how to go yet, either driving there or taking bus. And also am going alone. She asked whether am I serious or not and I said yes. Thought that she would reject me outright but to my surprise, she said see how first. And she also added that she's afraid that the following weeks she might be busy.

I honestly feels that what's left for me to do now is just for the right occasion. Guess I would need to plan it all out on how can I give her a memorable confession, unlike the so-forgettable confession the first time. On the side note, will be embarking on a mini project to create a video to let her know how much in love I'm with her. Thought of using pictures with the two of us together but decided against it. Decided to use Pon and Zi (the two emo cartoons) together with the song How Did I Fall In Love With You by BSB.